Finally an update again..... ohoho....

hellooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo everybody.... I'm back after a !@^$#@#^$-ing long or maybe not that long.... or maybe quite long.... or probably long.... wait.... is it long? lack of update.... er.... hmm....

lets see.... where did i left off the earlier time?.... can't remember.... bah.... lets just say whatever i want then.... well well well.... firstly.... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.... chem work.... office.... dead.... lectured.... i'm mahani-ed.... noooooo.... (no pun intended)

guess what.... I have been SICK.... wth.... i guess it all started when i stayed up till 5!!! on thursday midnight to prepare for my physics work and english work.... oh my gosh.... i asked for this.... bah.... sick sick sick.... it caused everything.... office trip.... sleep.... tired-ness.... everything..... BAH.... and.... sorry.... it caused the lack of updates.... why?.... let me give you the reason.... lets see.... weekend.... sleep.... monday? whole day sleep.... tuesday? after badminton and cleaning up? sleep.... wow.... i guess tomorrow you'll see a freaking fat fella going to class.... i've been sleeping like err.... dunno what (can't think of anything).... damn.... i'm surprised at how much blardy fatter i've gotten.... =.=.... someone please tell me you didn't realise.... ugh.... anyway.... thankfully.... we have BADMINTON!

oh yesh.... recently.... badminton has been quite a hot event for S9.... lets see.... its our.... 4th time yesterday.... okay first time.... the miserable Me and Felix went to play.... oh well.... 2nd time.... 9 of us i think.... then it caught the attention of the class.... or maybe news spread around.... and voila.... oh yesh.... the badminton gang.... lets see.... yesterday.... Michelle, Chee Xun and his friend (which he didn't introduce >.<)(or maybe he did but i wasn't there O_o), Felix, Siew Yung, Rohit, Ken, masyitah, xeng huei, Wei Xiang, and me.... crap.... if i mistakenly forgot someone.... PLEASE TELL ME.... my memory probably sucks.... with Yong Shen and Vincent missing.... =/.... still don't know why vincent didn't join us.... oh well....

anyway.... Felix and Xeng Huei are betting over their badminton games.... haih.... *absolutely no comment* but I didn't wanna get involved in any such things.... its not because of any weird reasons.... but for one solid reason.... which is.... I play badminton for the fun of it.... for the game, for the fun, for the friends, for the allies and opponents, and obviously for the gameplay itself.... I do not wish to play.... because someone BET on who's gonna win.... that really spoils the game for me.... =/.... call me dumb.... call me stupid.... call me coward... call me whatever you want.... but that is me....

so so.... Siew Yung, Felix, Me and Xeng Huei played.... (mind you, Siew Yung and I took no part in the betting issue).... and it was QUITE an okay game.... though.... its fun to play with your classmates :D....

later, Siew Yung wanted to re-practice her drop shot.... so okay.... we practiced for some time.... then.... when i was playing with Felix later.... MY MUM CAME.... OMG?.... okay that completely took me by surprise.... so anyway.... we had a chat.... and eventually she went home first.... and i stayed back.... aah luckily i did.... so after that Felix and I joined Michelle and Ken for their game.... it was not really a game.... but we stroked.... and gosh.... both of them were hilarious.... very interesting indeed.... deceived by the way Michelle is.... she actually plays quite well.... Ken on the other hand.... is really fun to play with.... really adds the fun and enjoyment to the game.... Ken.... you must join us on our next game.... :D.... but yeah.... from what i read.... Ken has been a poor fella in games.... THEN AGAIN.... he learnt a new skill yesterday.... GO KEN.... show them your true powah!

but anyway.... that game was fun.... honestly.... anyway.... talking about this.... today.... someone molested a girl in public today at the new block floor D.... too much details would be stupid but anyway.... whoever that guy is.... he did something totally intrusive.... =/.... so this morning.... there were guards patrolling the floor.... white uniforms walking around.... and i was wondering what happened O_o....

hmm.... y'know what.... I really do enjoy the fact that almost half of our class is getting together for a game.... lets make it a weekly event maybe?.... its good to exercise too anyway.... to burn those stupid stuff.... STUPID STUFF....

anyway.... the videos on Rohit's blog is totally hilarious.... for those who haven't checked that out.... GO.... you won't regret it.... :D....

okay lets see.... oh crap.... i just remembered i got tagged =/.... okay okay okay i get it i get it.... lets do it errr.... maybe.... next next next next next next next next next next next next next next next next next next next next next next next next next next next next next next millisecond..... in short.... lets do it now!

1. Six People to Tag. The victims are: (you can already guess the reasons for the order.... look around....)

* Michelle
* Rohit
* Vincent
* Shereena
* Brandon
* Ernest

2. Six Things I'm Passionate About

* My phone
* Badminton
* Music
* FRIENDS
* What else? My dearest family!
* All of you! (I know this sounds corny, but HEY I MEAN IT)


3. Six Things I Say Too Often

* Err...
* Oh my god
* What the hell?
* Smart la you....
* Haha.... (not sarcastically)(who says laughing is not considered a saying)
* (crap.... can't think of anything else.... damn i'm not observant to my own talking.... what do i normally say *_*?)



4. Six Books I've read(Recently)

* Textbooks (obviously) (though i only flipped it open and read a few lines.... thats considered reading right?)
* The Da Vincci Code - Dan Brown
* 'The Fourth State of Matter' - The Eliezers
* some article on troy.... can't remember the name
* magazines....
* i consider blogs as books so.... yeah!



5. Six Songs I Can Listen To Again and Again

* Apologize - Timbaland Ft. One Republic
* No Air - Jordin Sparks Ft. Chris Brown
* Empty or Happy Birthday - Click Five
* Home - Chris Daughtry
* Sleepless beauty - Gravitation (the musical version, which has pianos and other instruments)
* Breathless - Shayne Ward (took me sometime to like the song.... but it IS nice, seriously)(honestly, i mostly like the chorus)



6. Six Things I Learnt In The Past Year

* I suck at MANY things....
* Treasure everything you currently have.... this is one thing that really gave an impact to me.... you'll understand why when THE time comes....
* S9 is creating stories in Taylor's college :D
* Datelines SUCKS.... wait.... i mean.... I SUCK at datelines.... I always seem to go for last minute work =.=.... tch....
* I CAN spend HOURS plainly listening to music without doing anything else....
* I take songs too seriously.... i tend to go deep into the meaning of a song and truly and slowly appreciate it.... i can get drawn into music and get lost.... i also tend to sing with too much emotion when i sing a song.... i've cried before when listening to music.... honestly.... my cousin even took a video of me when i was singing.... just to show me how "emo" he said i was when i sang a song.... damn.... I just can't control it.... i truly can't control it....

thats it! I completed the long forgotten tag.... aaah....

By the way, MY COMPLETE APOLOGY to jia shen, shereena, wei ping, audrey, felix and many more for last last last last last last week.... i stoned at the karaoke.... please please please someone organize a singing trip.... i really feel like singing.... its like the one thing that makes me feel.... me....

Aaahhhh enlightenment....

today.... or rather this morning.... or simply last midnight at 5 a.m. i went to bed and i got up at 6.40.... oh yeah.... moving zombie.... okay lets cut this part out.... zombie talking isn't that nice to hear of anyway....

y'know what? somehow i feel enlightened.... no idea why.... or maybe thats what people say when your yesterday's 20 problems are almost done with.... though some i did nothing to make things better.... damn....

Today was my presentation day i decided to wear a half formal attire to college.... and oh my god.... such a response from almost everyone.... gosh.... do i really look like crap in the others? LOL.... damn.... i sucks....

talking about this.... it seems many things that i do people don't seem to realize.... like carrying 2 bags.... well I WAS carrying 2 bags way back in the March times i think.... and I've stopped carrying 2 ever since.... and guess what? some just realized that i was carrying one bag and went.... eh? where's your other bag? since when you carry one bag.... today?.... and i'm like WTH.... speechless....

anyway.... I wish to express my thanks to someone for opening up to me again.... I really do appreciate it.... the feeling of having another good friend again.... thanks....

well.... I'll update on the tag thingy soon.... so see ya for now.... just felt that i needed to express my true gratitude and thanks.... really and truly from the heart indeed.... friendship.... aaahh.... I'll try to do my best too....

Everything's kinda wrong today.....

damn.... starting off at 10 today.... i woke up kinda late and almost got late to class.... okay thats 1....

going to class only to find out that time wasn't enough for almost everyone who presented till now as 5 minutes SEEMS long but is indeed very short according to those who already done it.... so it seems I'll have to redo my presentation to be a lot shorter i guess.... work work work.... haih.... thats 2....

to arrive in class with the first class being spec. maths and the next break.... gosh so many people ponteng-ed.... okay maybe i should put a proper word.... erm.... skipped class or play truant as they call it.... poor Ms.Woon.... i mean Mr.Woon.... thats 3....

worse of all.... I wasn't able to pay much attention to his teaching today.... argh.... too much jokes and talking.... damn it.... I had to re-evaluate what was thought today and slowly match the pieces to understand what was going on.... ugh.... thats 4....

I just.... or maybe not just but i realized that I am sometimes FREAKING BLUR.... oh my gosh.... blur blur blur.... maximum blur-ness.... this need not anymore explanation i guess.... thats 5....

I just remembered that tomorrow will be the chemistry practical write-up, my english presentation AND my physics final report submission.... aaah.... how much greater can things be eh?.... thats 6....

today i was supposed to give out the brochures for my presentation tomorrow.... and somehow.... i stoned.... it was just.... my limbs were like stunned and i couldn't give it out.... i sat there.... like a complete idiot and stoned there until Masyitah saw my brochures and inquired and then took 2 pieces for herself and.... erm.... Michelle.... haih.... anyway.... thats 7....

I wanna emphasize again.... that i'm FREAKING blur.... and freaking gut-less.... what the hell.... what the hell and WHAT THE HELL.... tch.... its useless to explain this.... i'm hopeless anyway.... thats 8....

yesterday i was determined to complete my physics final report as i wanted to complete my English today.... since both were due on Thursday.... then how "lucky" i was.... my main reference site, the Australia's Military Website.... WAS DOWN.... click on the link and they say.... 404 server error.... server down.... omg omg omg.... omg la zzzzz.... thats 9....

so i decided to do my English instead.... where i started preparing my slides first.... and today after finding out from those who did it today.... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAhhhhhh.... i'll probably have to redo.... thats 10....

so its chemistry practical report read-up.... English presentation slides and speech preparation.... and physics final report completion BEFORE i sleep.... and thats like omg no time for everything.... why am i so a last-minuter?.... Pn.Mahani.... I have failed you.... so much for changing from Monday onwards.... damn it.... thats 11....

i postpone most of the things i do.... and END UP? THIS! wth.... i brought this upon myself.... this is something i'll have to embrace and face.... haih.... i guess even the midnight oil is dying out for me.... thats 12....

and.... so much for my guts.... and all.... it is already so late.... and i still cannot put myself together to just express my apology for my very own stupidity that has caused all the matters to be broken.... day after day.... night after night.... week after week.... and i still fail to do so.... I sooooooooo want to do so.... but yet something holds me back every time and i fail to initiate any sort of contact.... what more for an apology.... haih.... i hate this.... i hate this.... i hate this blardy thing.... DAMN it.... thats 13,14,15,16,17,18,19 and 20....

20 things have gone wrong.... haih.... will things ever move from the negative side of the grid to the positive side?.... or will it stay negative.... =/.... its all up to me actually.... if only I made things better earlier.... if only my mistake didn't have the opportunity to become a grave mistake.... why didn't i patch the wounds earlier?.... simple answer.... i sucks.... wth....

anyway.... this is just some minor update while i'm still working on my major one.... i just wanted to express a little.... remember this.... I think i'm not emo.... so i'm not emo.... therefore i really am not emo.... the power of thoughts eh?.... intriguing and interesting indeed.... but what I am now?.... haih....

What the.....

damn.... just when i wanted to continue my blogging life again.... this time with a new twist.... with pictures =D.... with my sister back from the USA and my new phone.... this was cool....

or rather.... was er.... cool.... you see.... its been a long time.... i mean LOOOONNGGG time.... since i blogged.... and i wanted to speak of everything from where i left off.... so lots of story and lots of pictures.... until.... i JUST realized.... my sister's camera does not have a cable to connect to my computer.... oh.... my.... GOD.... haih.... so despite your doubts and probably frustration on my recent lack of updates.... I too am grieved to tell that it'll be another update that i will go for a long one.... until i FIND that CABLE.... ARGH.... anyway.... this is my new phone.... (using the webcam to take it.... so don't whine and complain.... i know its blurry and all....) (by the way.... i'll leave my phone camera photos for the next update.... which will probably be the major one)







know this.... i like my phone very much =D.... it might not be the best out there and all this and that and blah blah blah.... but yeah....

anyway.... i'll just touch a little bit on matters today.... today Ken requested for us to all wear black.... and the lecturers OBVIOUSLY noticed it.... O_o.... and well well well.... some people looked really good today.... though some forgot to wear black =/.... guess what.... someone.... looked good too today and surprisingly with some reddish pink maybe on the cheek.... or maybe i'm just imagining things =.=.... but was it err... a slight make-up maybe? no idea.... okay probably i'm wrong....

anyway.... I just wanted to express that i really like or maybe even love...............................................................................
the song apologize..... =D.... okay no funny thing here.... for those who doesn't know the lyrics.... check out this site....

www.completealbumlyrics.com/lyric/131324/Timbaland+-+Apologize.html
(or simply type "apologize lyrics" in google)

okay.... i feel it's kinda attached to me....as sometimes though i try to deny it.... it applies to me as well.... haih.... y'know.... I know its pointless to say anything at this point.... but TOTAL loss of communication.... with one of my closer friends.... is really.... haih.... and it was me who caused this.... ME! you get it?.... ME!~.... if only reconcilement was an option.... bah.... though i finally realize my grave mistake.... I seems I already lost a friend.... if only things could be back like the way it was.... bah.... hopefully I'll find a way to reconcile.... hopefully....

anyway.... look forward to my major update soon.... my parents are shouting for me to go down now to have my dinner.... okay... byes

THIS BLOG IS NOT DEAD~!

sorry guys.... have been SOOOOOOOOooooooooooooooooo lacking in updates lately.... AAAhhhh my bad.... don't worry guys.... sorry again.... and my FULL apologies for this.... i will do a major update some time soon.... when i'm done with some issues i have to attend to.... its soooo Guargghhh.... so please be patient.... sorry.... BUT I WILL update.... hope you can bear with me.... just a little more patient.... thanks....