omg.... I'm so full of crap.... err i mean crab....

aaaah.... just got back from my dinner.... went to eat crab today.... NOT crap... its this....



haha.... anyway.... for those who still don't know what that is.... its a CRAB.... and did you know? there are crab served in cans too?....



and this is crab too....



i did not say anything wrong.... this is called a crab nebula.... something found in space O_o

imagine.... me eating near 1kg of crab by myself.... okay now you got what I'm feeling right now.... aaah feels so crab-like....

anyway.... today.... this morning.... Guitar came in and said.... blah blah blah.... whatever.... but anyway what she meant was that today's class is a free class.... so many people decided.... hey I'm skipping the next class.... and voila.... during the next lesson.... almost the WHOLE class went to FTZ.... which is a cybercafe in Asia Cafe.... and it was like O_O!.... so anyway.... leaving the few of us here.... Shem and Rohit decided to play a acting game.... i forgot what it was called but anyway.... you'll be given the name of the something the other teams want you to act out.... and your team will have to know what you're trying to act.... so today we played on English movies.... and I was chosen first from the boys side.... so okay.... I got my topic.... Starsky and Hutch.... and i was like.... OKAY!?.... this is a comedy show.... but how to show it?.... and i puzzled a while there.... and decided bah... lets just try letting them guess the word....

guess what.... I tried saying the 2nd syllabus was the sky.... the moment i pointed upwards.... Rohit guessed sky.... and yay~!!!... okay then i tried conveying the word star across.... and i was like... eh.... how ar?.... so i simply blink hands like the stars and woots.... job done =D....

then we moved on and moved on.... most of us didn't manage to guess the movie.... but one outstanding one was Michelle's guessing.... omg man.... The League of Extraordinary Men.... and the only word they knew was the word The at the start.... and she guessed it!!!! OMG?.... what logic.... =.=.... damn cool.... then came Shem's turn... and his topic was GIA.... erm no idea what movie is that but anyway.... he starting pointing at Michelle and trying conveying the word G-string for the first letter G.... but it really was confusing lol.... how is Michelle related to G? O_O!?.... anyway... Rohit, the experienced one... got completely caught by surprise when he got the movie DejaVu.... and he was like OMG? how to convey this across?.... you should've seen Rohit's face... LOL.... anyway.... seems Michelle was damn pro at this O_o.... she conveyed the message over so clearly omg.... like a real pro.... she must've played this game before O_o.... but in the end her team couldn't guess it.... oh well.... another highlight was Syitah's turn.... her 4th word in the movie was gigolo.... and to act that.... she pointed at ROHIT.... LOL we laughed like crap.... not crab.... CRAP!....

anyway.... Pn.Mahani is SOOoooooo lively today.... and paired up with the few of us in our class.... gosh it was a damn funny class.... LOL man.... hope this goes on always =D

bah.... anyway.... tomorrow I'm supposed to go watch the movie Forbidden Kingdom.... since Sooooooo many people said it was damn good.... some said it was a must watch.... but bah.... probably can't go anymore.... oh well.... so maybe this coming weekend.... oh man... hopefully the movie is still showing by then.... bah.... how outdated i am =.=....

omfg...... so it was true after all.....

omfg man i tell you.... omfg.... today.... it all started well.... i passed the driving part 2.... yay.... slope.... parking and 3 point turn.... no prob :D

then it came.... Teck Wei's advice of no rasuah = fail.... and Felix's advice of pau = pass.... no pau = fail.... i didn't believe it.... until....

so after i finished my part 2.... i was waiting for part 3.... something that should've been done by 2 pm.... but today.... it went on till 6pm.... there were supposed to be 13 examiners.... but ended up.... 7 were on leave.... leaving 6 to work.... so the examiners were all.... omg i nak balik.... omg finally habis.... sudah boleh balik.... kind of attitude....

so i waited and waited since 1pm.... sat there.... doing REALLY nothing.... until it was 6pm omg man.... i really don't know how i did it.... then i realised.... somehow.... i was the final one to take the test.... okay.... then it happened....

first of all.... so many people were asking me.... wei.... why you no rasuah.... later you fail la.... though not all examiner like this.... but some of them.... no give = fail.... and i was like.... never mind one.... i can do it.... damn la.... now i really regret....

so i was the final one.... i said my greetings to him.... and he ignored me.... well.... okay.... since i was used to being ignored anyway.... so i did my usual stuff.... damn prepared.... and it was all good.... so i started off.... then he started going.... hey jalan cepat la.... and i thought.... okay this is normal.... THEN!!!! i reached the first roundabout.... i looked to my right.... i saw ONLY 1 car.... and he signaled that he was going to turn in to my side.... meaning if i go forward we won't meet.... so i decided.... okay it was clear.... lets go.... then.... my examiner.... suddenly pressed the brake in the middle of the roundabout.... and the car stopped.... being obviously puzzled.... i asked him.... why stop?.... he said.... you mesti bagi priority kepada kenderaan dari sebelah kanan.... and i looked to my right.... WTF NO CAR AT ALL.... the earlier car already went off.... not even near my car.... and being completely in shock of the stupidity of the examiner.... okay.... since he said wait.... lets wait.... so i sat there with him.... waiting for a KENDERAAN to come.... which took some time.... then finally.... one motorcycle came and slowly maneuvered across where i was.... cause i was in the middle of the roundabout.... HE BRAKED FOR NO stupid reason..... okay.... then after the motor went off.... he said jalan.... and wtf i thought.... never mind.... i just wanna finish this stupid thing.... then.... since i wanted to turn to the 3 o clock side.... when i reached the 12 o clock side.... i signaled left.... since i was in the inner road.... and i saw a car coming out from the 9 o clock side.... quite far behind me.... and then!!! out of sudden.... my examiner went.... OIIIIII KERETA DATANG DARI KIRI!!! CEPAT!!! PUSING KANAN PUSING KANAN!!!!.... and i was like WTF?.... and decided.... this stupid fella ask me turn.... so i turn la.... then.... it happened.... i was already in the inner lane.... and he asked me to turn RIGHT!!!.... and bam my tyre TOUCHed the middle divider.... and he looked kinda like yay kind of look.... =.=.... and being in the inner side of the road.... he looked at me.... for some time.... and i was thinking.... hey.... YOU ASKED ME TO.... wtf?.... then.... when he was starring at me.... there were cars passing by using the roundabout.... and then.... suddenly.... he opened the door.... the the door swung right to the middle of the road and he walked out AT THE MIDDLE OF THE ROAD!!!....and asked me to get down.... and i was like.... WTF?.... who's the one being dangerous NOW????....

i told all these to my driving instructor after that.... and he was like WTF?.... HOW CAN THAT EXAMINER DO THAT?.... and he got REALLY pissed.... and he said.... well.... i got that examiner.... really tough luck....

y'know.... now i truly understand.... that some examiners are really painting $$ on their faces.... just because i didn't want to play the easy way by giving the cash.... IS THIS WHAT I DESERVE?.... WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

worse of all.... since as i mentioned earlier.... there were only 6 examiners and it was getting late.... coupled by the fact that i was chosen to go last for driving test.... wtf he really couldn't wait to go home.... WTF is wrong!?!?!?!?!?? okay honestly.... I'm so pissed now i'm willing to take Michelle's shotgun that day and shoot off that examiner's head....

damn crap la i tell you.... haih.... rasuah.... rasuah..... is it wrong to not embrace you?.... haih.... btw.... today i messaged a few people.... and erm.... Rohit's credit ran out.... Mich somehow became silent.... Shereena replied me wishing me good luck.... well thanks but i got a @#$$% examiner.... and my cousin was busy so he didn't reply.... and i sat there.... for 5 hours.... not being able to go anywhere.... not being able to do anything.... y'know the torture of the fact that you cannot do anything?.... haih.... i really should've tried talking to the others.... and i thought it wasn't needed.... haih....

btw.... today.... according to some.... Pn.Mahani's mood was good O_o.... well well.... nice.... her face and expressions when she's in good mood really enlightens the class.... really cool....

i also heard that the Physics paper was given back.... thats all =.=.... i know Jia Shen's results but thats all.... and i also heard Michelle got the highest?.... OMG 2nd subject.... sifu ar sifu.... heard it was 42/50 or something like that.... O_o.... sifu ar.... =.=....

and nothing much was heard.... i don't know.... these 2 happenings are all i get when i ask for today's happenings.... even worse.... sifu not even replying....

Jia Shen going for test tomorrow.... hope he does well.... actually the part which cannot be rasuah-ed i did perfectly well.... and the part that can.... they really kill me.... for no proper reason other than "THAT" and "THAT" =.=.... well at least the part that Jia Shen failed and is re-taking is un-rasuah-able.... so it all depends on luck and skill.... good luck man!...

aaaaahhhhhhh

errr....... okay for this post.... i wanna talk about Vincent first.... oh my gosh.... he was really studying SOOOO hardworking this morning!!!!!!!!.... really first time see..... really studying and understanding the questions and answers..... and asking questions whenever he didn't understand.... damn cool.... you know.... you should keep this up sometimes.... O_o....

Anyway.... i can't help but say.... OMG MICHELLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..... Sifu.... spec. math insanely superb.... as in.... INSANELY superb omg.... i just passed.... at 52 marks.... and i thought i failed O_o.... and Michelle got 74!!!!.... omg sifu.... =.=....

anyway.... today so many people skipped class.... zzzz.... damn no comment la.... haih.... guess what.... when Mr.Woon first came in.... there were only 4 of us there.... zzzz.... he was like WA? where's the whole class?.... then later Shem and Pavi came into class.... and Mr.Woon decided bah its getting really late.... lets just start class.... y'know.... when you really pay attention to what he's teaching.... you really can understand very well O_o..... damn.... i gotta blame myself for my marks.... omg sucks.... gotta learn from sifu.... always listen to Mr.Woon.... okay.... sifu lesson number 1.... listen to Mr.Woon teach.... gotta learn that....

well well.... guess what.... we were all like... huh???.... really so empty the class.... and I was like... HUH?.... sifu also ponteng?.... Mr.Woon also asked.... and guess what.... at about 15 minutes later.... whole gang came into class =.=.... y'know what?.... whole gang go cc play omg.... and waaaa....syitah and SIFU played too.... omg from what i heard.... seems sifu also sifu in cs.... scary.... 3v1 sifu kill all O_o.... Siew Yung on the other hand went back home to sleep.... and complained that since only the few of us were in class.... she shouldn't have woke up so early =.=....

anyway.... today.... i got called out for chem work.... and erm.... OMG.... i did the question my own way and got bombarded by Pn.Mahani.... aaah.... everything was correct but i didn't follow her format.... big cross =.=.... Sean thought i was wrong.... and tried doing it his way.... but ended up i was right.... O-o.... so i decided to redeem for my stupidity and corrected it =D.... sifu looked so happy today O_o.... wonder what happened.... or maybe its just sifu being sifu lol.... sifu so happy.... maybe i should join the fun O_o.... but how ar?.... O-o.... its like damn hard to talk to sifu haha....i sucks =P....

and erm... Brandon!!!! stop cabal-ing la!!!! you're killing yourself.... work not done.... slacking in stuffs.... don't be Felix number 2.... (Felix i hope you get my point too, don't let history repeat itself please...)

Btw, tomorrow is my driving final test!!!!..... aaaahhhhh scaring me now.... tomorrow I'll not be in class.... hope things go well O_o.... will be back on Wednesday so c ya all then....

my.... my.....

wow i tell you.... so many people went to watch movie yesterday.... aaaaaahhhhh.... okay this is outdated stuff lol......

and erm.... omg.... suddenly.... the c boxes in the few of us's blog are getting lively lol..... cool-ness..... especially erm.... mich's.... lol....

hmmm....anyway.... today after my weekly badminton game with my parents.... we went to Summit USJ..... and guess what..... there was a hip hop competition.... oh you should've seen the way they danced..... but then again.... it also was kinda disappointing.... I've seen a lot better.... well erm.... so much talk but i don't even know how to hip hop lol.... damn.... gotta go learn =/.... omg i can't imagine how i would be like doing so.... shit.....

and i DON'T HAVE A GF LA.... well..... erm..... if only i have.... oh well.... i guess.... i suck too badly after all haha.... have 0 skill in these kinda stuff O_o.... shit la.... =.=

and erm.... damn la.... you know i really enjoy singing.... i always give my full and all out when i do so.... and by myself.... I've been trying to raise the limit of my voice.... well you know... my voice IS kinda deep.... I've even been called as my grand uncle when i picked up the phone one day omg.... and OMG?.... recently.... my voice started losing its grip.... wth man.... I can hardly sing like how i used to anymore.... Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo I need to start practicing again..... crap la....

EDIT: OMG LA........ my phone gone again...... noooooooooooooooooo

lets leave the past and move on......

hey hey.... past times.... are past time.... lets move on.... i hope things get better.... and if possible.... I'll make things better....

today i realised hey.... soooooo many people went to have fun today.... and O_o.... studying I was.... shit haha.... damn i need a life.... though it was fun going out for study groups :D....

seems the coming thursday is a holiday eh?.... O_o.... wonder what I'm gonna do on that day.... hmm....

Anyway.... tomorrow is Math CT2 and Tuesday will be my driving final test :D.... lets hope and pray that i pass :D

y'know.... sometimes not thinking about stuffs just for a moment really helps.... though just for the moment....

Its.......like having a sailboat in the middle of the sea..... waiting for the winds to move you..... but the wind never comes....

you know.... today.... we had a scholarship presenting ceremony sort of thing....okay you know what.... i don't wanna talk about it.... it kills.... not only because it was boring.... but.... haih....

ya know.... today I got scolded by Ms.Phua my physics lecturer.... because we were "late" by 5 minutes.... when all our watches and handphones showed we were 1-2 minutes before time.... =.=.... but i don't blame Ms.Phua.... she's following her clock.... thats understandable.... and she as a lecturer needs to clarify things and not just... oh okay you're late go sit.... thats wrong.... anyway.... I'll have to move in earlier into class next time.... sorry Ms.Phua....

okay.... y'know....I realised.... Michelle isn't getting quiet after all.... sorry.... anyway.... its just me i guess.... or maybe it's just to me.... oh well....and btw, Michelle wore a dress today.... smart formal for the ceremony O_o.... seems she really dislikes wearing dresses.... forced to.... well.... she really doesn't look bad at all in it.... indeed looks quite nice.... O_o....

y'know.... I realise.... that i really cannot talk much.... or rather.... can hardly even talk to the someone....I guess what happened really did affect how things were after all.... I'm afraid.... what I've dreaded the most has come to me.... does things always have to happen like this?.... or is it only happening to me.... I just wanted to share what i was thinking of.... and after all this.... things ended up like this.... to be avoided.... to be ignored.... to be invisible to the eye.... to be turned away from every time you get close.... and to be like nothing at all.... and not be taken notice of at all.... is this really going to be the result?.... is this what I'm going to get?.... is this going to be like this?.... is it really wrong for me to share what i was thinking?.... just because of that.... do i deserve to be like this?.... do I??? DO I???.... it feels as if.... you opened a door.... hoping to find light on the other end.... but.... you end up finding nothing on the other end.... and the door shuts and closes behind you.... and you're left there.... on the other end.... with nothing at all....

is this just going to be another case.... where what I've come to share with others is going to create that wall in between.... is this going to be another case.... where what I've come to share with others only causes the bridge between to collapse and can never be built back?.... is this.... going to be the reason....for the 2 islands just side to side to drift so far apart....will this eventually end up as a pit hole waiting at the end?....Its so difficult.... to even start picking up bricks to build that bridge back because the other side makes sure that your bricks keep cracking and breaking apart.... its so difficult.... as when you try to pull yourself out from the pit hole....the someone pushes you into it.... its so difficult.... as the islands get closer to each other again.... they break into smaller pieces and drift away.... some of them.... never to be seen.... never to be heard.... and will never come back....

i tried this.... i tried that.... but every time i do so.... it not only shuts the door I'm trying to open.... but the door behind me closes as well.... i know very well that sometimes.... things are better left untold and untouched....as it can be poisonous.... but yet.... if you don't touch it.... you're burnt instead....

i really hope something....someone....or anything....will see this and guide me through the dark cave I'm in.... i hope that somehow.... the wall can be broken down.... the bridges return and stand strong.... the 2 islands come back together again....and the pit hole that awaits closes.... and i hope all these happens.... before anything serious happens.... before the very cave i'm in.... collapses.....

aaaah crap pants....

Bah... what a pants i wore today....got said to look horrible with those.... aaahhhh....... bad idea bad idea..... =/

anyway....today Vincent didn't spike his hair!!! OMG!?.... okay he said he had no time =.=....

Okay.... it may just be me.... but Michelle has been a lot more quiet....is it stress?.... is it problem?...or is it just me?.... oh man.... I hope it wasn't because of the past 2 nights and yesterday.... really sorry.... please don't give me that attitude.... please don't....

hmm.... today i managed to find the proper answer for DI model B... YAY...... and i managed to answer the questions except the last one... awww i think i got that wrong...

physics CT was okay okay.... not too bad after all....after the test... we had 2 hours break... O_o! well well.... and i thought i could talk to someone about some stuff as it really broke off abruptly.... and I really really really don't want my worst fear to come true.... and then i realise that the someone isn't somewhere i can simply go to like AC or some shop....haih...

actually.....just talked to Ernest for a long time......and talking about the things we were talking about.... its really....... haih....... I can blame myself for everything.......but nothing will be cured.......

anyway thanks Ernest for hearing me out.... thoughts.....always thoughts.....we talked about the special someone..... and talked on many other stuffs..... how i wish this could be openly told to others.... and just to share all these thoughts....haih.... Michelle.... Michelle....

sometimes i wonder......why do i have this "feelings copying" thingy?...... why am i the one who has to bare all the thoughts and can't do a thing to clarify things?....haih.......

I guess its a phase as many said.... i guess I should give myself some time.... to think things out.... and..... hopefully.... one day.... something or someone.... will enlighten all these....

You know.... its really hard to tell what i wanna tell.... and every time i really do tell something to someone.... it always causes something else.... ever since I talked to someone.... it seems to have created an invisible boundary.... its getting really hard to wanna say anymore of what I'm thinking of.... i guess these thoughts will have to be my burden.....

honestly.... i hate being emo.... and i try my best to conceal it every time i go to college.... or meet others.... but you know.... its tough.... and every time i spill something.... someone distances away.... or something else i really don't want to happen happens....

Its like.... the someone don't really bother anymore.... don't really want to know you.... just the "okay i know you and thats enough" kind of thing.... when i was just telling what i really wanted to say.... its hurtful to have such a thing happening.... i guess its all about learning.... improving.... and after-school life huh..... many said its a phase.... fine.... but how long will I endure.... its difficult to determine....

just remember this.... I'm not emo.... i just want a place to tell what I'm feeling....or at least the part that can be shared....thats why I've written all these in my blog.... for the others.... lets just try to keep them in the vault.... locked deep inside my mind.... with the keys vanished.... yet sometimes.... i feel.... the locked door is coming apart....