Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Emotions... and depression....

This is.... shit like............................................................. anyway... today Jia Shen skipped class (driving) guess what?... he passed his on the road test!!... and then failed his slope... omg....so he ended up being so pissed....and he "section removed"....wtf.... and erm... Felix skipped the first half of the day.... okay... thats about it....

Today.....haih..... i don't really have the mood to blog.... its just.... when it think of it... it makes me.... like..... haih.....i really dunno how to say it....

But for the sake of this blog.... let me just revitalize myself and quit thinking too much until i finish this blog for now..... sorry guys.... i just..... gah....

Okay let me begin.....Firstly... I've divided the paragraphs into smaller ones... since Shereena said it is annoying to read.... because of the very long paragraphs... haha... so I've changed it.... hope it is of better eye view for the rest too....

Now now.... firstly...today Wei Ping confirm eat wrong medicine..... damn weird.....maybe it is because Jia Shen isn't here =P.... hor..... nolar jk lol...

Hmm... today i reached college at 7.15 am.... and went straight for class.... there were only a few of us there.... Michelle, Ernest, Sean, Yuvy and me.... if i didn't remember wrongly..... it was like okay mostly..... we got in conversations and Sean also started asking me a question on chemistry CT... that was okay... then... Rohit came... and they starting talking.... so well well.... and time was about to run out soon after... so I think it was okay... and i moved my seat in between Michelle and Wei Ping... so then one by one started to enter class... and our first class English started.... then Guitar returned the mahjong papers with the letter back to the groups... and Rohit and I looked at each other... and both our faces clearly showed this one word "SHIT"..... so Rohit, Teck Wei and I were like... omg we shouldn't have thrown away our paper... and like... aaah.... what now.... Rohit tried to cover it up... but Guitar was persistent in asking for it... then we told Guitar that we "lost" our paper... and Guitar gave us a new piece... and lalala.... the rest is kinda sien... oh ya... Ernest at the first half of the day seemed kinda emo-ed.... i really worry for him... so many weird things he is going through now (or it is as far as i know)... and.... its really hard to help... sorry Ernest.... but thankfully he got a lot better later in the day.... ... okay.... crap... (okay I think I'm losing my grasp again.... let me revitalize myself again..... the thought is really killing my mood.... its so damn hard to ignore the damn thing...)(and erm... shit i forgot to split this paragraph... i'll do it for the rest)

Okay.... I think i can now finish the blog before losing it again.... so later after English 1st class... Rohit got into this spinning the book thingy.... and Michelle and Masyitah got like whoa.... and they both were like spinning book non stop during Spec Math class.... its like.... Az+B = P(z) and then boom some book fell... and then another part of the question and then woops.... and then Vincent got into the frenzy too and starting trying... but... Vincent was like doing it for fun... while Masyitah and Michelle were like trying to learn.... though somehow.... Michelle seemed to learn faster... not sure why though.... maybe thats what they call... silent yet deadly eh?... though Masyitah did quite well too.... actually i wanted to try it out too.... but that specific finger used.... for me... i can't use it to spin.... *nails* =.=.....and bah i had to forgo it....

then later.... Michelle brought back a childhood game i used to play with my cousins and sister very very long back.... gosh such memories it brought.... it is the game where... both players line their leg in a straight line.... and they start going scissors, paper stone thingy... and whoever who won... will retract back 1 step... and the opponent will have to bring the front feet forward to touch the opponents front feet... and everytime this goes on... the distance gets further and further... first, Michelle was playing with Masyitah just beside me.... and Michelle quickly lost the game... poor Michelle.... then Rohit came and played the game with Michelle... and Rohit was at his maximum stretching.... when suddenly he won the scissors paper stone thing... and he retracted back a whole big distance.... and Michelle had the look of..."oh shit".... then she tried.... and omg SHE DID IT....... but couldn't hold on to the position.... and i was like OMG?... that was FAR!!!.... then she spilled that she used to be able to do the split.... aww that would've been cool... too bad she can't do it these days... really wonder why... maybe she stopped practicing it and now the bones and muscles stiffened..... aww..... then Michelle starting talking a bit on some ball stuff... (okay you really don't wanna know about it)... actually it is nothing but... i do not wish to type it in the internet lol....

damn.... give me a moment... i need some time.... damn it... and i thought i could've finished the blog at one go...........................................okay... lets continue.... since Teck Wei, Wei Ping, Audrey, Shereena and I didn't have any specific place to go... and when i asked Michelle she said that they were going to Asia Cafe... we decided to join them... so we were walking walking in AC and then suddenly.... Michelle and gang went ahead and Wei Ping and the rest settled for another table... and I was like.... HUH?..... why suddenly the split?.... but i didn't ask....... don't ask why i didn't ask but i didn't ask why...until later... Michelle and Masyitah came walking towards us wanting to go order food... and I asked them why they went over there... and Masyitah said it was more cooling outside..... awww man.... then later... Michelle decided to move back and join us.... and okay that was cool....so i went ahead to order my own food.... and when i returned... i realized...... EH?.... why are we sitting on 2 tables? very near to each's table... but still a different table... O_o? but later when Ernest and Rohit came joining us.... then i roughly got why... oh well......... then later Ernest decided to join my table..... and we talked for a bit... and ate our food... then he went back to the other table... then Teck Wei moved over to the other table too... oh well.... shit i forgot to split again...

Okay... split...... later we walked back to college and Teck Wei and I went to the web..... we printed the practical test 7 thinking that it'll be used.... oh well... it wasn't used in the end... but anyway... we've printed it so it'll be of good use...so we were slightly late to class.... but nothing much was done or said..... then....Felix came into class!!!... with Wei Xiang and Chee Xun.... seems they ate Pizza Hut and got late.... haha... they even tapao-ed the food to class.... since they were rushing... then Ms.Phua took a look in the plastic bag they brought back which contained the pizza... and... bam.... Ms.Phua dropped the remaining piece of pizza Felix previously ate on the lecturer's table... and we were all like omg...

Vincent, Jimmy and Brandon later came into the class even later... and Ms.Phua was very interesting this period.... but damn shit... it was about this time that the thought came to me.... and it was like..... haih.....what the hell man..... i didn't even want to look to the back....

Oh ya... the 2nd half of the day... Michelle and Masyitah went isolating themselves.... i have no idea why... and Michelle had that sitting position again lol... i guess it has became more of a habit.... oh ya talking about this.... Michelle, Rohit and Masyitah took a piece of paper during class time and starting writing on it.... really puzzles me what it is that they're talking about... but i guess I'll never know anyway.... haih...

then this this that that and class was all over.... we were all walking out of the chemistry lab... and i talked to Ernest outside the lab... and after some time.... Ernest wanted to ask Rohit something... and he called... Rohit...... erm... Rohit.... Rohit?... but Rohit's mind was elsewhere... seeing this situation... i called loudly... Rohit!... and Rohit was like whoa? yes?... then only Ernest managed to talk to him.... or did they?... i forgot... then Michelle and gang came out of the lab... and Masyitah was like I'm going to capoeira today!!!.... and Rohit was talking to Michelle asking her to lend him her physics and chemistry notes i think.... and Ernest wanted to ask for something too... and he called... Michelle?... Michelle?... err Michelle... but Michelle was talking to Rohit and ignored him... and he turned over to me and was like... wth... why i am being ignored.... and i told him.... actually i am very used to being ignored.... it is just.... i dunno... maybe it is because of the way i carry myself... or i dunno.... but it happens.... so later when i was talking....... and Ernest wanted to say something to me... and he called... Khai Shien.... err... Khai Shien... and he was like OMG... you just told me that i wasn't really being ignored and you yourself ignore me... and i was like... WHAT!!?!?!?!?.... NOOOOO i didn't mean any such thing... because honestly and seriously.... i didn't HEAR HIM.... at all.....oh well.... what have i done?........ (EDIT: OMG i forgot to split again)

Then Michelle and Siew Yung went off.... skipping capoeira... and Masyitah and Rohit went to the Mac Center to photostat some stuff... there everyone left... not saying a word.... leaving Ernest and me... then Ernest and I walked towards Teck Wei and Wei Ping... which were the only 2 fella left there anyway... and Ernest and I talked to Teck Wei... later... Ernest, Teck Wei... and Wei Ping all left... leaving me alone there oh well... but soon later i went home....

talking about this....actually capoeira seemed and seems like a very interesting martial art indeed.... and I just don't know why... everytime the Capoeira gang invites me to join them... i just can't.... my mouth automatically utter words of rejection and declination.... and seriously... and i really dunno why... i feel guilty and awful everytime after that.... and still... i didn't join them....even Michelle has been ponteng-ing it lately.... and i dunno... it feels weird......

Anyway... this shall be the end of my blog for this afternoon.... I'll try to update it asap... i know this time it is kinda sien... please bear with me.... i'm really struggling to even write this out... sorry guys......its just... i'm afraid... if this goes on... I'll eventually loose.... my opportunity.... btw... please don't ask whats going on in my head.... i really don't wish to share it now.... maybe... just maybe.... I'll confide it to someone.... in time.... we'll know....

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