Sorry.....

Oh my gosh, i can't believe what I've done.... its like the worst thing I've ever done in my near 18 years of life.... how could I.... it was a set date and time.... and I missed it.... wtf is wrong with me....sorry.... really sorry.... I don't know how i can make it back up.... but please forgive me....sorry sorry sorry 10 thousand times....maybe it isn't enough...

(btw, for those who dunno what this is... don't ask =.=)
(cause i only wish to express and not discuss private matters in the public)